Darkness is as Light was my first novel. Although I started wirting the novel in 2004, ideas for the story developed years earlier with a vignette shared with me by a former patient that I couldn't forget. It had to do with the death of his mother. I wrote about that event several times but never considered developing a story around it. In the early months of 2004, though, ideas for a story came together quickly and I began writing. This is my most emotionally intense story.
Randall is a middle-aged man who has spent his life trying to preserve the memory of the mother he lost as a young boy. At the same time, he struggles with the fact that he lives with the person he suspects of killing her----his alcoholic father. Tormented by both grief and failed opportunities, Randall finds himself in a psychiatric hospital piecing together the meaning of his life after an attempted suicide.
Upon his return home, Randall discovers that his father is dying of cancer and that he must care for him. On this final journey, Randall learns what really happened to his mother, and in the process, both men discover light emerging from the darkness of their lives.
Below is a brief excerpt from Chapter 1